

"He who learns must suffer. And even in our sleep, pain that cannot forget falls drop by drop upon the heart, and in our despair, against our own will, comes wisdom to us by the awful grace of God." --Aeschylus, Greek tragic poet
"Cleansed" closes this week. i don't even know what to say about it. this show is a personal experience for everyone who watches it but also for each of us who've been involved in the production of it. i'm not going to speak for anyone else in this. i just need to speak for me.
i am going to miss grace. i'm sad that the show is coming to an end and i'll have to say goodbye to her. through her, mysteries in my own past have been made clear. i know more about myself because i was able to become someone else and it will be hard to let her go.
this show did not go the way i expected it to. it changed the way i view a lot of things, from those deep, dark things i don't want to go into, to the way i relate to my fellow cast members. i suppose at the beginning i liked all of them well enough although, i didn't really know any of them very well. i assumed that being part of this cast would bring us closer, maybe? i don't know. i have become close with denise but, in all actuality, i feel more self conscious around the boys now than i ever did before. i'm sure it has nothing to do with them and everything to do with the show. given time, i'll get over it. it just wasn't what i expected.
nothing about "Cleansed" is as i expected it would be.
this is, without any doubt, the single best piece of theatre i have ever had the honor of performing in. i am so proud of it and i think that is why it is so painful that it will be over soon. i can't imagine how things would have been different if i had not wanted to be grace so badly. i wouldn't want to imagine it. i really love this piece.
Aeschylus said that wisdom comes "to us by the awful grace of God." sarah kane's writing is raw and open, absolutely brutal and, in the brutality, beautiful...and in the beauty is the wisdom. it may take time to see it or you may never see it. i don't know. what i do know is that she showed me something about myself that is at once awful and lovely and i will never be the same.
i'll miss you grace.


Cleansed Interview
TheatreAddict.com: In your director's notes you talk briefly about being introduced to Sarah Kane's work and feeling compelled to bring it to the stage. Can you tell us a little more about your experience and why it was so meaningful to you?
Roger Mathey: One of my favorite underappreciated playwrights is Tom Eyen who wrote "The White Whore and the Bit Player". Most of my theatre life has been my attempts to show the darkers side of life in the hopes that the audience (and myself) will learn something from someone else's pain and strive to grow from that pain. And I was called on this by Jeremiah Heitman who then gave me a book of Sarah Kane's plays. When I read the works of Sarah Kane, I felt I had found another playwright speaking to me about their pain in the most graphic way they could. I tend (as do many theatre denizens) to use theatre as a sort of therapy... it is my tool to help me cope with the worls. When I write or direct or act, I am realising some of my pain for all to see. I found this from Sarah Kane... and her pain seemed infinitely more than most people I know. To the point that they weren't therapy enough for her to release her pain. She found another way. That is a way I cannot take. I've tried once and it didn't stick. I relate on many levels to Sarah Kane's pain and in doing so I found it a blessing to be able to release some of my own through her work. I, too, need to be cleansed of my own darkness every now and then and with the dark feelings I have had of late, this therapy was overdue.
TA: Out of the many amazing plays and other works in SK's repertoire, why did you choose "Cleansed"?
RM: Many of them I felt I couldn't do justice to. And with "Cleansed" I found her speaking of a subject that I feel strongly about...love. She is an amazing writer who asks a lot out of the people who will do her work. It's not just a play. It's art.
TA: I feel blessed that this art was brought into my life by this experience, I'm sure you and others feel the same. Is there any chance you might pitch another script by Kane at the Empty Space or direct another of her shows in the future?
RM: I don't know. Anything is possible. I like many of her works and when I feel the need to speak out again through her words and know that I can do them the justice they deserve with the right people who will show them the respect they have earned, then maybe I will do more Sarah Kane works.
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Once you have digested "Cleansed", here is some suggested reading for you.
Cleansed @ Arcola Theatre, London
Cleansed by George Hunka
Suicide Art? She's better than that -Mark Ravenhill

Ladies and Gentlemen, family entertainment is back in Bakersfield with a vengeance. On Friday I took my first trip out to The Gaslight Melodrama for their production of "The Rookie." They didn't miss one detail of that melodrama experience Bakersfield has come to love. I sat down with my beer and popcorn as the show began. The audience was welcomed, smokers were invited to "take their butts outside," and the host squirmed when only one person responded to "Any baseball fans here today?" We were then presented with a silly baseball farce, poking fun at sports movies and other pop culture targets. Serious baseball flics like "A League of Their Own" finally realized their comic potential when they were turned into glamorous over-acting by the Gaslight cast. My favorite moments in the show included: Jay Stodder singing "Dream The Impossible Dream" to the rookie in true melodrama style, Garrett Marhsall and Christie Maturo turning up the dramatic pauses and emotional turns in a lover's quarrel, and of course ALL of the funny faces and physical comedy by Greg Ramsdell & Mike Prince as they played around representing the cute but retarded Bakersfield Bovines.
After "The Rookie" we were treated to "Let's Eat," a vaudeville musical review all about the joys of food. Where else but the melodrama would you see dancing hambergers, a poem about a hot-dog, and a chef singing "Bella Note" as Lady & The Tramp slurp spaghetti. The cast was at their best in these short sketches and song & dance numbers. To my delight, every scene featured great singing and comedy. Every scene was fun and entertaining, and some were excellent, such as the one featuring Ramsdell as a demented waiter. Two "Veggie Tales" songs were featured. The Gaslight certainly knows how to play to their audience. They could do nothing but Veggie songs and I would come to see the show over and over.
The evening in its entirety was very fun and lively. It could have been better with more enthusiastic crowd...I could easily see the house being brought down at the Gaslight with this show if the audience was more boisterous (drunk). The noisiest audience member was an eleven year-old boy seated at a table next to us. He had the idea...he kept trying to yell out randomly at the actors but was stifled by his embarassed mother. Silly mother, the gaslight isn't for grown-ups. The next time I go you can bet I'll be prepared to act up. They have a lot of great shows coming up so I'm sure I will. The next one, opening May 26th, is a silly telling of The Three Musketeers. The movie adaptations are all so serious, even the one that has Chris O'Donnell as D'Artagnan. Come on, Chris O'Donnell? Later in the season I am also looking forward to "Pirates of the Old Kern River." I directed Peter Pan last year and I still hang out with my pirates regularly. I can't wait to go see that show with a big group of skallywags.
I have to be honest, I spent the first 10 minutes of the show very worried. Is the audience going to warm up to this and laugh? Is this premise really going to entertain me for two hours? One memorably shocking laugh line was missed by the audience just a few minutes in. Louise, played by Denise Hembree, is being coaxed into considering an affair by nosy neighbor Gertrude (Tracy Herda). She objects, saying "But I'm married." Gertrude responds "So was Catherine the Great and she had sex with a horse!" My mouth dropped open and I was ready to witness an explosion of laughter as the rest of the audience heard what I heard. But there was none. I cringed. Oh no. This isn't going to work! Then, there is the plot, which seems familiar. It is the same fodder as many other "situation comedies" either on the stage or on TV. In fact, it sounds like something that would be funny and shocking in 1911 when it was Carl Sternheim's Die Hose. But can it be funny today?
At the core of the story are Theo & Louise Maske, an average german couple played by Denise Hembree & Jason Monroe. Their lives are disrupted when the fallout of "the panty scandal" brings two absurd men into their home. Jeremiah Heitman is Versati, a flirty Italian poet. He reminds me of a bit of Pepé Le Pew, the lustful loony toons skunk. He reminded my friend, however, of Fez from "That 70's Show." Combine those two and you'll have Versati, who brings Louise to the brink of sexual desire only to run off and write about it instead of...well you know. Then, we have Benjamin Cohen, played by John Wells. To put it blunty, he is a stereotypical hypochondriac jew. Cohen is a reluctant peeping tom who's myriad of issues compell him to stick around so that Versati can't "have" Louise. Wells' is exceptional at creating laughter from Cohen's neuroses. The highlight of the show is a full five minutes of physical comedy during which Wells owns the stage. Jason Monroe's performance as Theo Maske is also worth mentioning. His portrayal of Maske as the husband who is beyond oblivious is spot on and at times explosively funny.
As you may have gathered, the characters in "The Underpants" are all wonderfully absurd. How else would underlying themes of anti-semitism and adultery flow so freely in a comedy? Martin's ableness at varied humor takes a thin premise and weaves it into a delightful show for actors and audiences alike.
This Saturday I had the pleasure of experiencing Side Show at the Empty Space. This haunting musical explores the dark side of human nature against the backdrop of a family of circus freaks.
Side Show, although quite dark and tragic, is extremely colorful and moving. The audience follows the twins story through musical moments that are magical, captivating, funny, and dark. The cast is alive with passion, the story is told with lots of finesse and energy, and the entire experience is invogorating & quite beautiful to behold. The show is - by my account - a sheer spectacle that you will enjoy from beginning to end.
Listen to Episode 4 of the theatreaddict.com podcast. I'll take you backstage at the Empty Space for exclusive interviews with A.S. Ashley (creator of "The Freak Show"), comments from audience members at intermission, and a really fun/interesting interview with the fantastic cast of Side Show. The cast answers such probing questions as "what is a freak?" and talks about the link between being a close-knit group of misfit circus freaks and being a cast of supportive, misfit theatre geeks.
Bakersfield often seems to be a bit suffocating for local artists, full of rednecks and mind-numbing normalcy. The independent films loved by Oscar and Sundance don't play at our theaters. Teens complain that they literally live in the "armpit of the state." Fortunately for those of us who need more than shopping at Wal-Mart and going to church, there is a seedy-underbelly to Bakersfield that is the growing arts community. This force was in full display this weekend in the form of "The Freak Show."
"The Freak Show" is a group art show at The Empty Space which exhibits pieces in a variety of formats such as paintings, drawings, photography, sculpture, and many that refuse to be categorized. The connecting theme is that everything on display is somewhat freaky, disturbing, or odd. There are also entertainers on hand such as belly dancers, percussionists, and local bands giving performances for all to enjoy. I was pleasantly surprised that "The Freak Show" was not just a show but a place, an atmosphere, and a gathering of local arts folks (or art-f***s as curator A.S. Ashley lovingly refers to them).
I know that gas prices are high right now so I'm going to take it upon myself to transport you to the freak show right now for a free peek at the crazy fun. This magic transportation will require a fast internet connection, unless you are very patient.





Bakersfield missed out on a fantastic show in March at the Empty Space. Pterodactyls was wonderfully bizarre, superbly dark & disturbing, and personally the best show I have seen all year.
This concept, I suppose, is offered as a general outline for the story by the author. It is a framing of the show, but not the show itself. What the show is, if I am to go by my impression of Bob Kempf's directors notes, is an experimentation regarding the darker side of absurd comedic characters. Take as an example any silly comedy in which the serious ramifications of the characters' behaviors & history are ignored. Then, latch onto the dark possibilities behind them. Probably confusing, I know, so let me illustrate. What if we took the hapless goof Elwood P. Dowd from "Harvey" and dug into him a little more. What if we found that all of his silly behavior masked serious problems. Say, he and his sister had a lifelong incestuous relationship and that is why she loved him so much. Elwood had a homosexual affair with his drinking buddy who was killed in WWII, and replaces him with a giant pink rabbit. He and Harvy have a sexual relationship, but Elwood has to get drunk and beat himself near death each night to enjoy it. All of this comes out in the first act, and by the end of the show all of the characters have met some sort of tormented, painful & embarassing death and at the end of the show everyone is dead, like a f---ed up Shakespearean tragedy. Fun, yes?
The first half of Pterodactyls starts churning your stomach pretty quickly. No not turning, churning. As in twisting into knots. The playwrite offers up this family of equally absurd and superficial characters. In fact, I was very worried for the first twenty minutes of the play because all of the characters were so silly and non-real. But then comes the one-two punch. Lots of big belly laughs keep coming, the actors are over-the-top and ridiculous (in a good way). Mom, played by Kimberly M. Chin, is out of touch with reality and parades around like a valley girl on steroids. Sis, played by Sarah Taylor, represses everything so much she can't even remember her brother who left when she was 10, and confronts him with a knife (or a letter opener, I think it was). Older brother, played by Jeremiah Heitman, giggles about dinosaurs and inexplicably digs one up from the backyard. Finally comes Jason Monroe who has shaved his head into male pattern baldness as Dad, who smoke a pipe, wears a light-blue suit, and is a nutty charicature of every father character depicted in entertainment history. Doug Cheeseman rouns out the cast as sis's fiance who throws out random movie references and ends up wearing a french maid's outfit for more of the show.
So the audience is roaring with laughter, and then every once in a while something dark and disturbing is thrown in that quiets everything down for a second. Then back to laughing. Then, more frequently, darkness that is hardly funny. The two keep mixing and darkness keeps increasing until you feel you are on some kind of screwed up merry-go-round. You feel disturbed, though still chuckling at all of the antics. This brings you to intermission.
Bakersfield Community Theatre's April production tells the well-known story of that red-haired, wide-eyed orphan girl who has charmed her way into the hearts of millions. No, not Annie, but Anne (with an "E"). Anne Shirley, played with boundless energy by Vanessa Vaughan, is a different kind of inspiring orphan, however. She has the bright spirit and big imagination of other well-known characters such as Oliver Twist or Annie Warbucks, but her realism makes her more relatable and lovable.
Before watching the play I knew almost nothing of "Green Gables", except that it is classic literature and popular reading for young women. As the play progressed I was enthralled and instantly saw the appeal. Anne is absolutely captivating and her story draws you in from beginning to end. After living her life unwanted from age zero to twelve, at age thirteen she seems to be born again as soon as she steps off the train into her new life. Her zest for being alive and appreciation at finding love in her new family is infectious and irresistable. I found myself seeing the universal appeal in the story. Who among us has not felt like Anne, thrust into a new world, alone and at odds with your surroundings, yet determined to live to the fullest.

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